Aug 29, 2009

STOPPING BY WOODS ON A SNOWY EVENING!!



Whose woods these are I think I know.


His house is in the village though;


He will not see me stopping here


To watch his woods fill up with snow.


My little horse must think it queer


To stop without a farmhouse near


Between the woods and frozen lake


The darkest evening of the year.


He gives his harness bells a shake


To ask if there is some mistake.


The only other sound's the sweep


Of easy wind and downy flake.


The woods are lovely, dark and deep.


But I have promises to keep,


And miles to go before I sleep,


And miles to go before I sleep.

- Robert Frost

Aug 15, 2009

QA

question: HOW DO YOU WANT TO LIVE in a WORD????



answer: WEALTHY



(if u read... try to give an answer..... it was the question asked to AL PACINO in the movie CHINESE COFFEE..... his answer was "SPACE")

Aug 9, 2009

Once Again



Let me take a leap to the farthest of the stars,
Where no one can find me,
But I could find them all.....

Many a times I have thought to run away,
Run away from the fall,
But the vibration comes again,
And I find the sky, up and tall.....

Will it be right to stop the climb,
And start digging the earth,
If the heights are not what I was made for,
Let me have the greatest fall....

Let me fall down,
Where there is nothing so divine,
Where I could lye with things like me,
Breathing but no life at all.....

(depressed again)


Aug 5, 2009

:(


Tell me how to sustain the pressures,
I am bound by the webs,
The self created ones.

Need a force to cut it open.
To free me,
To release me.

Fallen and pierced,
No blood to bleed,
No screams to hear.

If you see me,
Just pick me up,
Let me live,
Need to see once the beauty of the world!!!


(depressed!!!!)


Aug 3, 2009

MORAF'S JOURNAL... 03/08/2009

Things can be straightened if they want to but what if something up above the sky or someone right in the heavens controlling you wants your life to be a bit more entangled and derailed.

I am happy sometimes and get confused most of the times. Do not ask me for reasons cause I have none.

There is a need for the circle to get completed as soon as possible so that some miseries end. No negatives involved here, just a little tired with all the fights, the battle of life and the war between what is good and what is not.

IT IS DEFINITELY VERY HARD TO BE A HUMAN!!!

Aug 2, 2009

rhyme!!! :O

sing little, oh! pretty bird,
let me first wash off this mud,
ask the peacock to wait for the rains,
dance when there are plenty of grains,
and oh! my dear black cloud having a small domain,
don't give my plants any strain....

and when they grow green,
the old will behave like a teen,
all will have a smile,
as the empty land will be full of food piles......

& thus I rhyme ... hearing the chyme..... don't laugh at it... if you don't like it... just BEAT IT!!....lolzzzz!!!

BREATHE THE DEATH!!!

dreams break,
aims change,
goals vary,
life remains.....

what you see,
sometimes you feel,
things heard,
may not be true,
sense then too remains......

thoughts can be minor,
beats can go low,
moves still remain.....


never feel lifeless cause there are things in you which will never die even when you are declared dead!!!!


Aug 1, 2009

Hope the answer works!!!

And then I asked myself the same question which Hamlet once asked:



"To be or not to be"



& someone replied: Be there to feel not to be felt!!!



"Whether it is nobler in the mind to suffer

The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,

Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,

And by opposing end them. To die: to sleep;"



& the same someone said: nobler will be to accept the miseries of present and shape the future so that it does not carry any weapons against you.



something inside me stopped myself to go any further with Hamlet's question and to listen to whatever that "strange someone" had to say.....


"don't ask questions to life cause it can't be tamed,
it doesn't care for the numerous reasons it is blamed,
sooner or later you will have your opportunities to claim,
when life will seem to be more sane!!"





Jul 31, 2009

QUOTES FOR A LIFETIME!!!



1. I AM ALONE, I AM NOT LONELY!!


2. WHEN IT RAINS, A PART OF YOU NEEDS TO GET WET!!

3. LIFE IS SHORT & ALL THE TIME YOU GET IS LUCK!!

how true!!

COURTESY: HEAT (1995)

ps: salute to ROBERT DE NIRO & AL PACINO!!!

Jul 30, 2009

COMMENT!!

and wherever you are,
whatever you are,
in what part of tesseract you lie...
i feel your existence here...
around me...
so I too take the opportunity,
to express my love,
by saying what is needed to say,
I LOVE YOU FOREVER!!!...:D


my comment to : here & now

Jul 24, 2009

.................!!!!

Waited for so long to realize this....

till then... every tree needs money to be maintained properly,
river water needs to be taken care of,
fish needs to be fished....

& that needs money...
though money can't be eaten,
everything we eat needs money!!!!

I am so sorry.... i was just in state of contradiction... so contradicted the beautiful verse:


"Only after the last tree has been cut down.
Only after the last river has been poisoned.
Only after the last fish has been caught.
Only then will you find that
money cannot be eaten".


Prophecy of the Cree Native American Tribe.

courtesy: shekhar kapur's blog.


otherwise... I love the verse above!!!!


PS: I hate Rakhi Sawant and her stinky show....

BREAK DOWN NEWS!!!...


Listen guys & gals.... Rakhi Sawant "whatever" chor ke ja rahi hai.... lolzz....

How can NDTV imagine bend down so low to show these cuts in order to invite people to watch Rakhi's "whatever"...



ps: I think this "chor ke jaane" can lead to the SEASON 2.... probably then you all will accept me to be someone like "daruwalla".... :D




HAVE YOU MADE SOME PLANS OFF LATE???




" You know when does God actually smile... what is his favorite joke???


When he hears you making plans.... cause it is he who makes plans for you!!!!"




" Oh Lord!!! My love, my lovely lord.... why did I ever get sad... felt dejected when my plans were not successful though I always knew that you were the one who decided for me!!!"



Jul 23, 2009

& the BARTEK said....


"Seven hundred years have passed and still there is something missing in my life and the small place which belongs to me is not lively....

Seven hundred years have passed and still there is no sense of companionship....

Seven hundred years have passed and no one is alive to care for me in order to make me live more.....

Seven hundred years have passed and I have seen myself climbing records for being one of the oldest trees... but that is all.... still missing the "love", the bliss to fall.....

Seven hundred years will pass again and if you ask me... I will say.... don't want to live longer to show my oldness again.... the life so blank... empty of love... is just like my branches... empty of leaves.... dead like "death" is not the real pain... alive like being "dead" is like all the hell's punishment chains....

whispered the beautiful "Bartek", the Polish oak tree.

Jul 21, 2009

MORAF'S JOURNAL 21/07/09


What should I write?... lets begin from here.... had a long discussion on the difference between "ONLY WORK" & "PARTIAL WORK + INTELLIGENT PRESENTATION" with PAPA.

As usual PAPA had lots of experiences to share.... things being dug out from past and related to our topics of discussions. A great two hours discussions.

RESULT: There should be a perfect combination of work and presentation.

In the evening had the same conversation with a perfect stranger. Yes!! A PERFECT STRANGER.... suddenly it seemed as if we have known each other for so long....

HOW DID IT START??

Started with LUCY!!! Yes, Lucy, his dog... a true LABRADOR......beautifully black and soothingly shiny... friendlier than friendly!!! I loved her....

After discussing about different dog breeds we came upon an introduction and then later had the same discussion...

RESULT: IT IS BETTER TO BE A SMART WORKER RATHER THAN A WORKER!!!...:d

to bhaiyon aaj ke liye bas itna heen.... now just go and watch RAKHI KA WHATEVER>>>>lolzzz

Jul 20, 2009

A SPECIAL COMMENT!!!... LOLZZ

PS: NOT FOR ANYONE WHO "WORSHIPS", still, "MISS" RAKHI SAWANT.


I was watching this show... "RAKHI KA... WHATEVER"... & suddenly a thought struck me....

After this there will be... :

RAKHI KA DIVORCE....

& then...

RAKHI KA .... WHATEVER... SEASON 2....

I think it is possible cause I have seen Rakhi breaking off from his X-BF and then reuniting on the same day.... ON A NATIONAL NEWS CHANNEL...

So anything possible in Rakhi's planet....

Know what... can't even attach the pious word SWYAMVAR to Rakhi's name... have always used it after SITA ji... and now RAKHI.... no.... can't be so disgraceful....

chalo... u ppl watch SEASON 1.... and I will look forward to SEASON 2... :D...

Jul 17, 2009

MORAF'S JOURNAL 17/07/09

There is comfort everywhere as it should be.... I am being blessed with good home made food and lots of care and concerns..... the things which I missed in the past six months.... but the abundance of all these and many more is making me silence struck....

I am losing the habit of thinking every second of being alive....

Excessive happiness too makes you cry and that is what I am feeling now.... I want to cry.... probably am missing someone very close to my heart.... ya!! it is you..... just hope of sharing the same with you someday when we will be together!!!!

It feels really annoying why I am not trying to make any calls to you... probably cause am scared of your blunt and dumb reactions which am facing since yesterday!!!!!!!

Anyways.... feeling a little light now... :)

At home... I feel so saintly... no wrong thoughts... nothing wrong said or done.... i am silent... slow and BLANK....

Yes... blank..... after six big months.... i am blank now.... my brain was so tired of thinking millions of things at the same time....

BLISS TO BE BLANK.... BLESSED TO BE BACK HOME..... SMILING LIKE A BABY.... :)...

MORAF'S JOURNAL 14/07/09

It is 6:20 in the morning and I am sitting alone at the Vijaywada Railway Station viewing the crowd move by me.

There is a comforting breeze flowing around me making me a little more sleepy as I wait for the train to my home scheduled at 7:30 a.m.

I still think about pass sometimes, reminding myself of the mistakes I have done till date. So many years have passed that I have actually forgotten the causes of the tumble downs in my life. Now I just think ... "WHY?".

An old lady comes near me and asks for money in the local language. I just don't pay any attention. With time, I have learned the art of "futile ignorance". Let people feel that you are "DEAF".

"DREAM BIG, INVEST SMALL", what a banner holds for people reading it. A question....... no...... two questions strike me,

- What if a person is illiterate?? He can't read the banner then he should not even dream as he is not investing cause of lack of knowledge......

- Why can't we dream big without any investment???

TODAY WE HAVE TO BUY DREAMS TOO......

The train arrived , only ten minutes late..... in the context of IST, it is highly commendable for a public serving thing/person to arrive so early!!! I was expecting at least an hour delay.

People here don't seem to be friendly. I sit alone.

14/07/09.... the evening

A guy called Sunny, seems to me like my past... he starts the conversation and while talking he makes me feel special by really acknowledging all my advices.

Suddenly the whole not so friendly environment seems to be very cool and familiar. Everyone is interested in talking to me.... We start exchanging numbers too... Probably future holds some good companionship.

I meet a guy called Rajeev at around 8:00 pm and we straightaway gel with each other.... with the same style of mockery and the "pun intended" kind of statements. His one liners are likable and there are smiles everywhere.

Its late now.... have spent most of the time talking to a fellow passenger Rahul who is doing his B.Tech from NIFT Delhi. We talk about software's and languages, discuss about projects and the future plans.....

My body is stressed out now.... need to get some sleep....

Jul 12, 2009

MORAF'S JOURNAL 12/07/09

I felt the anxiety again....
Somewhere something is troubling me... probably the failures of all the expectations...
I know it is not the right thing to link all the not so expected events with the events going to happen in future but then I was helpless....
So finally felt scared too....
(linking my H.V. marks with the upcoming results of DSP & OpAmp)

Spent the day searching for some job opportunities... the time makes me realize what people feel when they strive for a job and don't get one....

My policies force me to work... so making use of the precious present moment went to meet the head of the institute where am going to be appointed as a trainer.

Good... not bad indeed!!!

Had a talk with Prasad a few minutes ago when he actually related to me the incident where he was abused by his Boss in a very not so acceptable fashion ... this made me ask whether this was one of the policies of the corporate sectors that you have to take all the bull shits and mean while remain silent...

Was happy to hear that it was not at all like that.... his silence was his own wish and probably the moment's demand....

"jab mummy ka chehra dekha".... the statement of the day....

The guy left a nice growth job in one of the big players in industry cause he felt the fear on his mom's face... the fear of losing her only son!!!!

Bravo!!!!!

What else.... nothing much... life for me is still stuck up and probably the time will also stick for the next two days.... when I will travel to my home....

ANYWAYS.... JOURNEY HAS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL END.... CAUSE THE DESTINATION IS "HOME"......

WILL TRY TO PEN DOWN ALL THE EXPERIENCES OF JOURNEY ... :D


NOW IT IS GOING TO BE FUN... SUDDENLY I REALIZED.... A HELL LOT OF NEW EXPERIENCES AND NEW PEOPLE TO MEET....


moraf!!!!

APOLOGY & "THE" WISH




I NEED TO APOLOGIZE TODAY.....


for being so impulsive,
forgetting the things that you have given me,
ignoring the opportunities given to me,
negating the positives in my life,'
and above all....

CURSING YOU FOR THE PROBLEMS IN MY LIFE....

I know you will forgive me or might have forgiven me the same time but my conscience did not allow me to stay back with the wrongs uttered by me for you.

You love me lord and that is the reason why you want to protect me... and the way in which you protect may seem to be disguised at some times but then finally it comes out to be the most comfortable one ever experienced....

ONE MORE WISH....

PLEASE RENDER ME A SECOND CHANCE TO MEND EVERYTHING WRONG IN MY LIFE........

(one wish I should have made years before.... but then life starts when you want it to.... so today I start a new life with a new wish..... and the ultimate one....)

PS: see whether this wish is needed by you or not!!

Jul 3, 2009

SUGGEST A PERFECT TITLE... I AM UNABLE TO....

Hope you know dear son,

Father loved u all,

Time didn’t allow,

Else had told this,

When you were small…..


Oh my darling little kid,

See the scars now,

These were born before you,

Working in the town….


Does my tummy resemble a belly?

This used to be small,

People called me a skeleton doll,

When I worked to feed you all…..


Baby now I lie here,

Eyes still open wide,

People feel I lasted my breath,

Though till I am undergoing an emotional tide.


Before you bury your dad,

Need to have a promise from all,

The death has given me innocence,

Which birth gave you all,

So promise me my son,

You will grow my memories TALL…



The papa died and the son cried…. That was it all…..

He never heard the dead soul’s mourn,

Remained unaware of his dad’s last call…….

Jul 2, 2009

Stopping By Woods On A Snowy Evening



Whose woods these are I think I know.


His house is in the village though;


He will not see me stopping here


To watch his woods fill up with snow.


My little horse must think it queer


To stop without a farmhouse near


Between the woods and frozen lake


The darkest evening of the year.


He gives his harness bells a shake


To ask if there is some mistake.


The only other sound's the sweep


Of easy wind and downy flake.


The woods are lovely, dark and deep.


But I have promises to keep,


And miles to go before I sleep,


And miles to go before I sleep.

- Robert Frost

May 14, 2009

TALK ABOUT DREAMS

Life isn't about crazy dreams.... but I had the guts to dream and see.... the dreams are real now....I am successful now!!!



ALL THESE AND MANY MORE.......... BULL SHIT!!!!!!!!


I am not a pessimist who will keep on contributing anything which boosts energy or seems positive but when it comes to cynical things like this.... I tend to lose my patience and scream!!!!

How many Dhirubhai Ambani's does the world know about???.... & how many Tendulkar's???.... or how many Amitabh Bachchan's or Shahrukh Khan's???..... one.. two... three.... count on the fingers and you would never lose your count......



WHAT IS SO BIG ABOUT DREAMING???

arey yaar I always wanted to be SPIDERMAN or SUPERMAN.... what happened??? Nothing!!!

Becoming something like Ambani's is equally impossible for people like us....

So better keep your big and good dreams for you sleeping time....


AANKHEIN KHOL KAR DUNIYA DEKHO.... MAY BE U WILL SUCCEED!!!

KYA PATA KAL MAIN SUPERMAN BHI BAN JAAOON.....

UP
UP
&
AWAY!!!!!!

May 13, 2009

Rest in Peace AKA Rust in Peace

What will you advice someone working hard without any results????

Something like.... "Take some rest, and then work later...."

I will say... better keep on working rather than taking some peaceful rest... cause... Resting for Peace or as said... Resting in Peace for dead.... I say.... Rusting in Peace for the alive!!!



Apr 5, 2009

नकाब ऐसा इक मैं भी ओढ़ लूँ

छोड़ दूँ ,
मोड़ दूँ,
इस पल से ख़ुद को तोड़ लूँ,
रास्तों पड़ रूहों के साए,
नकाब ऐसा इक मैं भी ओढ़ लूँ,
खो जाऊं,
खोज लूँ,
जाग कर सोच लूँ,
कल तुझमें मैं समाया था,
आज तुझको ख़ुद में समेट लूँ,
रास्तों पड़ रूहों के साए....
नकाब ऐसा इक मैं भी ओढ़ लूँ.....

Feb 12, 2009

NO TITLE!!!

A little sick, little bank, working less than I did before, probably finding no reasons to work. I am not depressed, but not totally alive and agile as life. Something died some days back and there is no keen effort too revive the dead.
Everything seeming so fake and absurd. Can't answer the questions like "What am I doing here?" and "What should I do?" but not frustrated at all cause things like this don't matter anymore.
Trying to find HUMANS around me separating myself from the seemingly ones.
Listening again to the "ROMEO & JULIET" song by DIRE STRAITS, making one more effort to strike the happy chords in my life cause love is the thing which can do that for anyone and I am no exception.

PROBABLY SOME ACUTE CHANGES ARE NEAR AND THE THINGS ABOVE INDICATE THE CHANGES.......:)


"started with nothing,
ended with nothing,
the mid was blessing,
when at least I did have something!!!"


amit writes......rasputin suggests......fakir decides!!!...:)

amit/rasputin/fakir

Feb 10, 2009

THE HUMANITY RECESSION!!!

These some days have devastated my inner soul and the only conclusion that I came to going through all the turmoils in my life was that "EDUCATION" has killed "HUMANITY" in all its forms.

I don't carry any dreams like traveling around world and earning lots of money now. I met people hugely educated and richly rich but with a heart which just beats without any rhythm. It was thoroughly surprising for me to see people running away from the help that they can render just to spend some more time to work so that they could increase their bank balance and further more the greatest excuse nowadays... "RECESSION"... It was an economic recession I think, but now I find a crisis of humanity.

The economic recession may improve but the lack of humanity can never be. EDUCATION HAS KILLED THE SOUL OF BEING A HUMAN BEING.

What will I gain joining a big multinational company?

If this is how my life will be structured then I need to get out of the dreams of working high and earning higher. Better to stay in a small village with few people around and have humanity alive so that I could provide help to anyone in need.

Jan 15, 2009

मन हमारा, जो लिखे वो तुम्हारा... पढ़ें और बतायें, कैसी लगी!!!



Hello Everyone!!!


This post celebrates my first book in print, a self published one and a compilation of my POEMS in HINDI.



Do purchase the book so that I can feel the “push” and continue writing more.
Will be waiting for all your comments here, and so for the time being, will stop my blog posts to keep this post “NEW”.





Can find the book in here at:

Jan 10, 2009

ख़ुद से वचन

सात रंगों से सजा ये जीवन है मेरा,
दूरियों को परास्त करते ये रंग हैं मेरे,
इस जीवन में सजाने की भावना उस इन्द्रधनुष को लिए,
अपनी अलग सी सपनों की दुनिया बनाना,
ये ख़ुद से वचन है मेरा!!


ख़ुद के सूरज और ख़ुद के चाँद को अपने जीवन में लाऊँ,
इस जीवन में कुछ ऐसा कर जाऊँ,
ना देखूं ना सुनूं,
बस कल्पना के पंख लगा कर आज उड़ जाऊँ.
पृथ्वी के कोने को छूने का प्रण है मेरा,
अपनी अलग सी सपनों की दुनिया बनाना ये ख़ुद से वचन है मेरा!!


देखो फ़िर ये सूरज निकल पड़ा,
मेरी अपनी सी लगती रात को अपने आगोश में ले लिया,
इस सूरज से भी ऊँचा जाऊं,
रात की खामोशी को कभी ना भुलाऊँ,
बस उसकी गोद में सर रख कर सोता जाऊँ,
रात की ममता की सभी को अनुभूति कराऊँ।

यही बस ख्वाब है मेरा,
अपनी अलग सी सपनों की दुनिया बनाना ये ख़ुद से वचन है मेरा!!

Jan 9, 2009

where is god when love is not alive????

people come and read and don't dare to show.... what kind of animal are you all??????

i never asked you to be with me... why so scared???

stop treating me like an entertainment.... i am not a multiplex show.... plzz....

get away from me.....

MY COPYRIGHT..2....:)

Give me a day and i will write a story,
Grant me a month and I won't even scribble a word,
That's the way,
Life sculptured me,
And I am too stubborn to deny the fact that,
Life made a HUMAN out of me,
Otherwise I WAS JUST PROUD TO BE AN ANIMAL.....

Jan 6, 2009

TELL ME R & F

Rasputin & Fakir, suddenly I am having these thought losses... and am very scared to go into the dry phase that i usually go into...guide me through this....



Rasputin: Don't worry Amit, everything is going to get straightened and soon you will have more thoughts than you can pen down in here.... Why getting scared.... transition is the way life makes us feel its existence....So be brave....cherish your dryness too.... it will make you feel the thirst and need for something to wet you.....:)


Fakir: I agree with Rasputin this time Amit.... believe, have faith.... on Shiva and yourself.... If you have faith on god you will never lose faith on yourself.... so go to him... more than you went before.....ask him.....share your problems with him.... he won't reply but he will take care of things that you are worried about..... about the dryness.... why are you so concerned... take his name, hold the pen.... start writing.... he will guide your hand....and you will see the most beautiful picture emerging out of the dry thoughts....probably it will be better than the ones before.....


thnx both of you..... you people are sweethearts.... love you a lot....:)


Jan 5, 2009

RANDOM....

GOD HELP ME FIGHT THIS....
YOU HAVE TO.....
HELP ME DO THIS.....
HELP ME....

Jan 3, 2009

पापा, एक बार....

पापा, एक बार पलट कर फ़िर से देखो न,
मैं वैसा नहीं,
जैसा दिखता हूँ।

पापा ऐसा कभी नहीं चाहा मैंने,
की तुम्हें चोट पहुचे,
पर पापा मन् थोरा नादान था,
वो बेहेक गया,
जाने कैसे उसने एक ऐसी राह ले ली,
जो तुम नहीं चाहते थे,
पर अब तो मैं वापिस आ गया हूँ,
तुम्हारे साथ चलना चाहता हूँ,
पापा, फ़िर भी ऐसा क्यूँ लगता है की,
तुम मुझे अभी भी वैसे हीं देखते हो।

बचपन में तुमने मेरी सारी गलतियाँ माफ़ की है न पापा,
आज क्या मैं इतना बरा हो गया,
तुम माफ़ क्यूँ नहीं कर पा रहे मुझे पापा?

बरा होना अगर ऐसा था,
तो मुझे कभी भी बरा नहीं होना था,
मुझे अभी भी मेरे घोरे की सवारी करनी है,
जो कभी भी थकता नहीं था,
मुझे मेरे पापा चाहिए जो मुझे कुछ भी ला देते थे,
कभी डांटते,
फ़िर प्यार से गले लगा लेते।

पापा, तुमने एक बार मुझे मारा था,
फ़िर रात भर मेरे बगल में बैठे थे,
मुझे मनाते,
आज क्यूँ नहीं मना लेते मुझे,
क्यूँ नहीं बैठते मेरे पास आ कर?

क्या करूंगा मैं बरा हो कर पापा,
मुझे बस आपका बेटा बनना है,
और किसी से क्या लेना देना?

पापा एक बार पलट कर फ़िर देखो न,
मैं बरा नहीं हुआ,
मैं वही हूँ, आपका छोटा बेटा,
जिसके घुंघराले बालों में आपकी उँगलियाँ फस जाया करती थी,
जिसके नाखूनों को आप बरे प्यार से काटते थे,
जिसके पैर गंदे होने पर,
आप उन्हें ख़ुद साफ़ कर दिया कर देते थे।

पापा ज़िन्दगी से लरते लरते,
पता नहीं कहाँ खो गया मैं,
खोज लो न मुझे पापा,
बुला लो न मुझे,
देखो न, मेरे बाल उलझ गए हैं,
कितने गंदे हो गए हैं मेरे ये नाखून,
आ जाओ न पापा,
ले जाओ न मुझे।

पापा, देखो न एक बार पलट कर,
मैं वैसा नहीं,
जैसा दिखता हूँ।

REALLY ANGRY ON RASPUTIN!!!!

I don't know why it always happens....

wanted to drink......OK
wanted to drink less......OK
wanted to be in senses.......OK
wanted to enjoy.......OK

and
ended up drinking more than ever...... WHY???

there were no questions of remaining in senses....damn it!!! i don't even remember what the bloody fuck i was talking yesterday..... and still am dizzy.... Happy!!!!RASPUTIN... I should have never allowed you to take control over me.... WHY DID I TRUST YOU????

enjoy... ya probably i did....but i don't remember.... i do remember running to wash room twice to vomit......WASN'T THIS GREAT....

Jan 2, 2009

GIRLS .... :(

"जाओ मैं तुमसे बात नही करती, तुम आज भी पी कर आए हो," एक प्रेमिका ने अपने प्रेमी के पीने की आदत से नाराज़गी दिखाते हुए, "प्यार" से कहा ।

"अच्छा ऐसी बात है, तो पहले क्यूं नही कहा, मैं रोज़ पी कर आता, कम से कम तुमसे बात करने से तो बच जाता, "
प्रेमी ने हँस कर जवाब दिया ।

"ऐसी बात है, तुम मुझसे बात नही करोगे तो तुम्हें अच्छा लगेगा, तो मैं चली जाती हूँ, आज के बाद कभी नही आऊँगी," प्रेमिका ने इस बार पिछली बार के मुकाबले थोरी और कठोरता का इस्तमाल किया ।

" अगर ऐसा हो जाए तो मज़ा आ जाए," प्रेमी ने फ़िर से मज़ाक में उस बात को टाल दिया ।

वो मज़ाक थोरा मंहगा पर गया और प्रेमिका घर चोर कर चली गई।

प्रेमी ने रोकने की कोशिश की पर प्रेमिका के ने गुस्से ने उसे रुकने की अनुमति नही दी।

प्रेमी के घर का हाल:

प्रेमी ने थोरी देर अपनी प्रेमिका से संपर्क बनाने की कोशिश की। हर कोशिश नाकाम होने के बाद, प्रेमी ने शराब के दो घूँट और गटके, बिस्तर पर लेटा और सो गया।

प्रेमिका के घर का हाल:

प्रेमिका रात भर परेशान रही और सोचती रही की क्या उसके प्रेमी को सच में उससे इतनी शिकायतें हैं। नींद का नामोनिशान नहीं था उसकी आंखों में। रात भर परेशान रहने के बाद, दूसरे दिन सारी बातें वापिस से अपने स्थान पर शकुशल लौट चुकी थी।
दोनों के बीच में सुलह हो गई और आपस का प्यार अभी भी बरकरार था।


अब आप लोग बताइए, की who was at the loss???? lolzzzz

this is what i say to all the girls.... stop thinking like bloody SOCRATES, live your life and enjoy!!!..:)


Jan 1, 2009

RANDOM THOUGHTS!!!

I was offered scotch today and i refused!!!!!

This is some good start I suppose....:)

I don't like such changes but sometimes you need to change... as I have mentioned before in one of my early posts.... NEED OF THE MOMENT V/S MOMENT.

A common myth does recommend to drink and enjoy as it is the start of the year but the moment suddenly felt so pious that I refused... Anyways it feels good whenever you do something which strengthens your will power.

I could feel a change in the temperature around and suddenly the air seems to be less polluted. Probably 2009 has seriously arrived for me. Was waiting for this.

Was on phone with Anu while the clock struck 12:00 and we both were confused as the noise outside in both the places suggested celebrations but we both didn't have a time piece in front of us. Later on after realizing that THE NEW YEAR has arrived we both wished each other and I continued with my studies..

About RESOLUTIONS, I haven't given that any thought yet and probably won't indulge in it. "ALL THE PROMISES ARE MADE TO BE BROKEN AND ALL THE NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS ARE THE LIES SPOKEN!!"...that was good....;)

some Hindi poet said this someday.....

"नए साल की खुशी में,
पुराने को भुला देना,
ये साल भी कभी पुराना हो जाएगा,
उसे ये एहसास दिला देना

पिछले साल में जो किया,
उसकी यादों को सीढी बना,
नए साल की नई यादें बना लेना"...

but who is the poet???.....
it is me....;).... who else???...:o
and I am saying this today....:)

२००९ की शुभकामनाएं!!

A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR-2009, TO ALL...:)

Dec 31, 2008

आओ एक कहानी सुनाता हूँ!

हाँ तो, कहानी ऐसे शुरू हुई,

एक रोज़, सुबह के कुछ बजे, मुर्गे ने बांग भी नही दी थी तभी, एक पागल सा दिखता बूढा व्यक्ति सूरज की पड़ रही, उन अभी अपूर्ण रूप से विकसित किरणों में, हमारे घर के आगे जो गली है उसमें कुछ ढूंढ रहा था

मुझे उसकी मानसिक स्थिति ठीक नही लगी तो मैंने सोचा कि जा कर उसकी मदद कर दूँ

मुझे देख बूढे को जाने क्या हुआउसने आकर मेरे हाँथ को ज़ोर से पकड़ लियाऐसा होने की कोई उम्मीद नही होने कि वजह से मैं थोड़ा घबरा गया था।

बूढे ने मुझे हँस के देखा और कहा कि वो मुझे हीं ढूंढ रहा थाये सुन मुझे बरा आश्चर्य हुआमैं तो उसे जानता भी नहीं था
मेरा चेहरा देख उसे समझ में गया कि मैं क्या सोच रहा हूँ

उसने कहा कि बहुत दिनों से उसने किसी से बात नहीं की थीउसे एक इंसान चाहिए था जो उसके दिल की बात सुन सकेकहते कहते उसकी आँखें भर आई
मैंने उन्हें गले लगा लियाउनकी सूनी आँखों में वो अश्रु धार मानों रेगिस्तान में एक नदी के समान थी
फ़िर मैं उन्हें अपने घर ले आया

सूरज की रौशनी के बढ़ते स्वरुप को देखते हुए चाय की चुस्कियां भरी
इस दौरान उन्होंने मुझसे कुछ कहा मैंने उनसे

उनकी जो बात थी शायद उनके आंसूओं के साथ बह गई
अब हम रोज़ सुबह मिलते हैं, साथ बैठ कुछ बातें करते हैं और चाय पीते हैंउन्हें अपने अकेलेपन का एक साथी मिल गया और बिन मांगे भगवान् ने इस अनजाने शेहेर में मुझे एक अपना सा अभिभावक दे दिया।

PARTING NOTE TO 2008

DEAREST 2008,

today your life ends. Thanks for giving me some very good memories and I promise I will preserve them throughout my life. My sister got married, had some great fun together, I mean my family and me. I just love remembering all those times so much. Met some new friends and had a talk with some older ones too. Saw a slight change in Ma and Papa. They have started looking younger. ;). Saw myself getting transformed from fun loving to studious to lazy bug and back again to studying.

I don't remember how the first day of you was spent but I know it would have been really beautiful.

Some hours are still left and I just want to remind you that you were really precious and will always remain.

Will miss you but am eager to see your descendant take care of my life.

TAKE CARE OLD MAN!! I WILL NEVER BURN YOU. YOU WERE BEAUTIFUL AND STILL ARE!


love,

fakir/rasputin/amit



Dec 30, 2008

THIS IS RASPUTIN... NOT ME...:p

"अरे ओ BOMBAY वालों,
कुछ COMMENT भी तो मारो....:p."



shuuuu Rasputin shuuuuuu keep quiet!!!!....

इंतज़ार

इंतज़ार करना पसंद नहीं,
पर कर लूँगा,
चलो ये भी सही ।

इस इंतज़ार के आगे अगर बीते को भूलने की आस है,
तो इस इंतज़ार से मुझे इनकार नही ।

दिये को देख रातें काटी हैं,
जनवरी की रात थी,
शरीर पर एक ढंग का कपड़ा नहीं,
चिथरों में लिपटा मेरा शरीर जितना ठिठूरता,
उतनी मुझे तुम्हारी आस तुम्हारे पास खीच लेती थी,
शरीर कांपता था,
पर मानो वो दिया और कहीं नहीं,
किसी ने मेरे दिल में जला रखा था,
शायद बाकी कुछ रह हीं नहीं गया था,
बस मैं था और तुम्हारा इंतज़ार था ।

क्या किस्मत,
क्या समय,
क्या देखना,
क्या सुनना,
चलना,
रुक जाना,
जागते हुए सपने देखना,
और सोते हुए जागना,
कुछ रह हीं नहीं गया है शायद,
देखूं तो बस यही समझ आता है,
कभी मुझे इंतज़ार करना पसंद नहीं था,
और आज बैठा हूँ एक युग से तुम्हारे इंतज़ार में..........



मन हमारा जो लिखे,
वो तुम्हारा!!!


अमित मोहन

Dec 29, 2008

**SPOOF OF GHAJINI**


After hearing a lot about the movie “GHAJINI” I thought why not to write a spoof of it?? So here it goes….


Players: Govinda (with his one pack belly) as SANJAY SINGHANIA

Rakhi Savant (equally irritating as she is in the news channels) as KALPANA

OTHER CASTINGS CAN BE LIFTED FROM THE EKTA KAPOOR FAMILY DRAMAS…. (Trust me on this)


SCRIPT:

The movie starts with Sanjay waking up in his room and finding his wife Kalpana sleeping by his side. He sees himself in the mirror and is startled to see the cut marks on his head. He was trying to find the answer to this when his wife told him that he was hit by a cycle while crossing the road cause of which he was suffering from short term memory loss and was unable to make new memories. Sanjay with a surprised look on his face goes to the bathroom and takes off his t- shirt to find something written on his belly. The word was “KILL”. He recognized the handwriting. It was his. Even after a lot of perseverance he was unable to remember why he wrote such thing. Suddenly he found a packet in his pocket; it was a pouch of “rat and cockroach killer”. His brain started to function.

Probably this was what he wanted to write. He used to work in a pest control department which threw him out cause of his disease so he might have decided to fight against those ugly creatures by himself.

One more look on his entire body made him realize that he had some other names too written on his hands. The names were like, Sunita and others. He went back to his room and searched for some other clues. In his drawer he found a Polaroid picture of a lady dressed as a maid and on the photograph it was written in his own handwriting, “She will help you achieve your goal, because she also hates parasites.

Sanjay was too scared to go outside and he was feeling really embarrassed. Kids used to tease him for his dome shaped belly and now because of his head being shaved cause of the accident his appearance was nothing less than “HUMPTY DUMPTY”.

To engage himself, he kept on feeding the mice in the nearby gutters with the poison he found in his pocket and was happy to see them die in front of him. After finishing the stuff he returned back home and was beaten by his wife cause of being late. He asked her about Sunita and who she was. Hearing this Kalpana lost her temper and kicked his ass and tore his shirt to find some “mirror image” tattoo on his big fat stomach just above his belly button. She pulled him to the mirror to read what was written. The whole statement which Sanjay was unable to read because of the spherical shape of his belly was,

HAVE TO KILL MY WIFE.

HAVE TO” on one side and “MY WIFE” on the other. So what he read was “KILL”.

But Kalpana had read it now. This was the end of Sanjay. Words rushed out from his mouth, “BULL SHIT!”

Of! Course, now he was beaten like bull shit by Kalpana. Sunita came for his rescue and after getting ten to fifteen slaps from Kalpana, she told her about the plan she and Sanjay were up to. They wanted to kill Kalpana so that they could move ahead in their relationship. This was why Sanjay carried a “Rat killer” in his pocket so that whenever he gets time, he could add it to Kalpana’s food. He was annoyed by Kalpana as she was having multiple affairs with guys and girls around. Frustrated by this Sanjay fell in love with his house maid Sunita.

To remind himself about the purpose he carried a note like “READ YOUR BELLY THROUGH AND THROUGH”. But that day the note fell into the commode and got flushed and the confusions got created. Sunita came late to work that day and so their indecent ideas were exposed to Kalpana who later on called the police constable- cum- her boy friend to beat the shit out of the two.

Now, Kalpana is happily married to her boy friend.

Sanjay, after being badly beaten by the constable started forgetting things in a second compared to the fifteen minutes which he took to forget things before. He is popularly known as “ONE SECOND SANJAY”, named after “FIVE SECOND SAM” from “FIFTY FIRST DATES”.

Sunita pleaded for mercy and is dating four at a time now, the constable, the judge who relieved her, ONE SECOND SANJAY (for one second in a day!!) and KALPANA!!!

I NEED REVIEWS FOR THE SCRIPT… DO COMMENT!!!...:p:p:p



RAPUTIN(AMIT)
"I RESIDE IN YOU,
WHY DON'T YOU ALLOW ME TO SPEAK?
I AM YOURS,
LET ME TAKE THE CONTROL,
BELIEVE,
HAVE FAITH IN ME,
LISTEN TO MY WORDS,
THEY ARE NOT MEANINGLESS,
LET YOUR HEART VIBRATE WITH MY BREATH,
LET THE REACTIONS BE GOVERNED BY MY ACTIONS.

YOU WANT TO FEEL THE CHARM OF BEING ALIVE?
LET ME DO THAT FOR YOU.

I WILL LIVE IN YOU.

OPEN THE DOORS,
LET ME IN,
BE FREE.....
BE SAFE.....
LET ME FLY YOUR PLANE FOR YOU....."



one day the fakir said this to me and we both i mean, rasputin & me most willingly gave the handle in his hands on which we had faith.... a faith that told us... "he will take us there where we are striving to go!!".... thnx fakir.. you are for sure a rock star. ..:)


RASPUTIN AND AMIT


Dec 27, 2008

तलाश है !!

इस धुंए में जो आग बची है,
इस धुंद में जो पानी की बूँदें छिपी है,
इंतज़ार तो करो,
धुंए की आग भी भरकेगी,
धुंद की बूँदें भी बारिश बन बरसेंगी ।

छोर दो धुंए को,
उसको अपने अस्तित्व की तलाश है,
धुंद को निखरने दो,
उसे बारिश बनने की आस है ।

जो छुपा है उसे क्युं खोजना चाहते हो,
वो उनका स्वरुप है,
उनको पहले वो बन जाने दो,
फ़िर देखना,
एक आग ऐसी लगेगी,
बर्फ की सिहरन भी उसके सामने कमज़ोर परेगी,
बारिश यूं आएगी,
पूरी धरती को भिंगो जायेगी ।


Dec 26, 2008

बंध जाऊं सबके साथ !!

डर कर छुप जाऊं कहीं,
या बन पक्षी उड़ जाऊं,
जाऊं आस्मां के उस पार,
जहाँ न कोई मुझे पहचाने,
न मैं किसी को ।

या सब को ख़ुद में समेट लूँ,
सब मुझमें समां जायें,
और मैं सब का प्रतीबिम्ब बन जाऊं ।

एक ज़ोर का तूफ़ान आए,
हम सभी को अपने साथ बहा ले जाए,
कुछ ऐसे मिला दे हमें एक साथ,
चाह कर भी अलग न हो पाएं,
यूँ बंध जायें साथ,
कोई दूसरा तूफ़ान भी उस बंधन को न तोड़ पाये ।



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