लिखना इतना मुश्किल क्युं है?

बहुत बार सोचा तुम्हें भी अपने सोच से निकाल शब्दों में दाल दूँ,
कुछ ऐसा कर दूँ की तुम्हारी यादें अब न आए सामने मेरे,
पर जाने तुम्हें इन शब्दों में लिखना इतना मुश्किल क्युं है?

जानता हूँ मिटा नही सकता तुम्हें,
इस लिए तो लिखना चाहता हूँ,
पर जाने तुम्हें इन शब्दों में लिखना इतना मुश्किल क्युं है?

तुम बस रेत पर बनी एक तस्वीर हीं तो थी,
जो मैंने अपने हाथों से बनाया था,
पर ऐसा क्युं लगता है की चाह कर भी सागर की लेहरें तुम्हें मिटा नहीं पाती,
और मेरा देखो मैं तो बस तुम्हें लिखना चाहता हूँ,
पर जाने तुम्हें इन शब्दों में लिखना इतना मुश्किल क्युं है?


फ़कीर (अमित )

MY COPYRIGHT..1...:)

"हम धुंद में छिपे बारिश की बूँदें हैं,
कब भिगो जायें,
पता भी नही चले!!!"


ये हमारा डर नही है तो और क्या है,
इस बात का डर है की कहीं कोई और हमारी परछाई न चुरा ले,
उसे ओढ़ वो, वो न बन जाए जो कभी हम बनना चाहते थे,
ये हमारा डर नही है तो और क्या है?

TRYING TO PRESERVE MY WRITINGS!!! (:p) I KNOW THERE ARE LOTS OF HUMAN CATS AROUND!!!..:p

FAKIR/RASPUTIN(amit)

A QUESTION PUT TO MYSELF!!!

Q: What have you done in your life till now?

A: I have failed many number of times in my life and I can't still give it in written that I won't fail again.

Q: So this is your accomplishment?

A: No, this isn't my accomplishment. I survived through all those failures is my accomplishment and I am sure that SHIVA will help me to breathe through the coming turmoils too!!!..

FAKIR/RASPUTIN(Amit)

WISH

I remember it was four in the morning when I switched off lights of my room after getting tired of studying and mostly frustrated cause of the vastness of the subject I was studying.

It was the time when I decided to dream about something which I wish to happen so that the dreams could provide some relaxation to my tired brain.

I wished for you,

I wished for you by my side,

How would it feel to feel your hand rubbing my forehead,

Trying to make me sleep,

How would it feel talking to you in darkness?

When none of us could see each other but just feel the touch,

How would it feel talking to you about my state of mind after reading the irritating subject?

The feel of your hand in mine and my sleepy eyes shutting down listening to your voice… I could feel the lullaby effect in your voice…..

This was it when I fell asleep……and I am still wishing for something…..

I WISH I WOULD HAVE SEEN YOU…:P … LOLZZ

THE LONGEST SENTENCE!!!...:p

He was sitting beside me, tensed, annoyed and frustrated, trying to get some solutions but not ready to share things with me till I forced him to do so and finally after ignoring most of my perseverance he decided to feel better by vomiting his emotions out to me, the emotions which suggested his loneliness and heart burns, the things which I gauged but after knowing them too wasn’t able to provide solutions to his pains cause after all one has to fight his own pains and agony and so I did the best, sat with him, shared his tears and provided him with some of my smiles which were gathered by my past experiences!!!!!!

This is the longest sentence I can write!!!...:P..(110 words to be precise)

RASP’S BROKEN HEART…..

“I know I am in a very committed relation and this is not a time to confess something and that too here, in public…. But I am so sorry I feel I am falling in love again….:(

Sorry to say this…

I feel our stay together, though eventful, having lots of joys, and compared to our laughs, absolutely not painful…. I feel it’s high time for me to decide that I should move on….

I do remember the first time we met; I experienced a sudden change in my life. I had someone to share my dreams and help me work to achieve them… trust me, I will miss all those feelings more than you…..

I would like to say, I want to experience all those feelings in a much closer context with u by my side…. So will u please come to my place and live with me…. If possible get married to me because people here will not allow us to live peacefully without getting married….

U know, I am even ready to come to Ur place and talk to Ur parents and ask for their permission…

I hope u will accept my proposal… so that we can live happily… u know…aaaannnn…. Try to understand…”

This was how, my GREAT FRIEND Rasputin wanted to propose his girlfriend but unfortunately, his girlfriend dumped him before he could release the letter in public…. Fakir and I had a hearty laugh after this!!!!!!

Amit

WHAT IS WITH THIS NAME...."MARIA"???

I think i know around 6 songs which have "Maria" .... and i am sure that a lot are yet to come...
Why the name "Maria" being used everywhere in the songs just like "Puja" or "Raj" in hindi movies?

to mention some of the songs....

1. Maria by Ricky Martin (this one got really famous, why?? I don't have any clues but on a very personal front, i never liked the song!!"

2. Maria Maria by Santana ( the beauty of Santana's guitar... if someone hasn't heard it... i think this is what is missing in the person's life!!!)

3. My Maria by Brooks & Dunn (i don't really think that all would have heard this song, but i am sure that the song deserves at least one time listening.... in my case its like min ten times a day... lolzz!!!)

4. Maria by Green Day (didn't find it very interesting!!..)

5. the famous AVE MARIA song: sung many times by greats like Celine Dion, Dolores O'Riordon.... (the song can't be commented by someone like me, it is much above all.... basically not a song.... a prayer)

anyways, to sum up, i think most of the songs having "MARIA" carry the beauty of their own.... so i am thankful to "MARIA" whoever she is.... to provide us with some great music.......lolzzz!!!! GOD BLESS MARIA!!!...;);)

fakir/ rasputin(amit)

AN EVENING AT MY PLACE!!!

The Fakir as always is trying to make himself comfortable, searching for some peace in order to speak to god... to emit his pains and problems....
Rasputin is busy being occupied by some marvels of music... pushing Fakir to the things he thinks is better....
He claims that he has found some very soothing songs... which will make him feel close to god.... but Fakir has different plans... he has not allowed Amit to have a single meal throughout day.. cause he wants him to pay visit to temple along with him....

Today Fakir's strength overpowered that of Rasputin so much that Rasp didn't say anything at all against him and so he too accompanied them to temple.... It was a celebration there in the temple today.... They enjoyed the lonely atmosphere... it sometimes happen that the temple remains so empty as it was today....
They returned... Fakir is peaceful... Rasputin feels blessed too... Amit is happy to see the same emotions fly in both of his parts.....

R&F sing!!!

"I promise you will get old
I promised you everything
To protect you wherever you go
I'll give you this diamond ring

Just promise you will remember
A promise should last forever
Right up to the dying embers
Of a fire that burns so slow"

Ya they do sing.... sing along with Badly Drawn Boy.......
they sing while they work....
they sing while they sleep...
they sing while they think....
they sing while they speak....
they sing along with Badly Drawn Boy....

"And sometimes you just have to walk away
Sometimes you just have to walk away
Wishing today was yesterday
Yeah, sometimes you just have to walk away "

R & F sing together with Badly Drawn Boy.... feeling the depth of the song..... hope everyone feels the same and sings when listening to it.....:)

GOD KEEP US IN TOUCH WITH GOOD MUSIC.... (every noise which seems pretty is not music).....

fakir/rasputin(amit)

tujhmein rab dikhta hai, yaara main kya karoon??

"Tu hi to jannat meri
Tu hi mera junnon
Tu hi to mannat meri
Tu hi rooh ka sukun
Tu hi akhiyon ki thandak
Tu hi dil ki hai dastak
Aur kuch na janu mein
Bas itna hi jaanu

Tujhmein rab dikhta hai
Yaara main kya karu
Tujhmein rab dikhta hai
Yaara main kya karu
Sajde sar jhukta hai
Yaara main kya karu
Tujhmein rab dikhta hai
Yaara main kya karu"

haven't heard something as beautiful as the above lines since past so many years!!
for me this song is kind of a prayer... i even can sing this while i worship... and i am sure it won't sound cynical...:)
requires great feelings to pen down such things down....:)... adding the remaining lines!!!

"Kaise hai yeh doori

Kaise majboori

Maine nazaron se tujhe choo liya

Oho ho

Kabhi teri khusboo

Kabhi Teri baatein

Bin maange yeh jahan pa liya

Tu hi dil ki hai rounak

Tu hi janmon ki daulat


Aur kuch na janu

Bass itna hi janu


Tujhmein rab dikhta hai

Yaara main kya karu

Tujhmein rab dikhta hai

Yaara main kya karu

Sajde sar jhukta hai

Yaara main kya karu

Tujhmein rab dikhta hai

Yaara main kya karu

Rab Ne bana di jodi


Cham cham aaye

Mujhe tarsaaye

Tera saaya ched ke chuumta

Oho ho

Tu jo muskaye

Tu jo sharmaye

Jaise mera hai khuda jhoomta

Tu hi meri hai barkart

Tu hi meri ibaadat


Aur kuch na Janu

Bas itna hi janu


Tujhmein rab dikhta hai

Yaara main kya karu

Tujhmein rab dikhta hai

Yaara main kya karu

Sajde sar jhukta hai

Yaara main kya karu

Tujhmein rab dikhta hai

Yaara main kya karu

Rab Ne bana di jodi "

that's it... the most mesmerizing song till now!!!.... need to feel love to realize the beauty it has...:)

Rasputin free.... Fakir regains silence!!!....:)

My Fakir says again...."Ranjha Ranjha kardi hun main, aape ranjha hui!!!"

I need to love him once ... maala kahe hai kaath ki tu kyun fere moe, mann ka malka fer de, turat mila doon toe!!"

Sometimes i feel this great urge of roaming on the streets, draped in white cloth... reciting his name and asking for meal which he has provided for me..... but not possible in this age though...:)

"preet jo laagi bhul gayi, peeth gayi mann maahi, rom rom piyu piyu kahe, mukh ki sirdha naahi....mann laago yaar fakiri mein, bura bhalla sab ko sun lijo, kar guzraan garibi mein.....mann laago yaar fakiri mein...."

I love my family... i love her.... i love my pets... i love my friends.... one missing love..... love for god.... love for my shiva!!!.....

Rasputin made me free.... allowed me to drink.... and drinks made my Fakir alive......

this is the truth..... "main hoon to tum ho.... mere bina tum nahi... tere bina main nahi..."

"mera mujhmein kuch nahi jo kuch hai so tera, tera tujhko saunp dein, ya laage hai mera..."

"jab main tha tab hari nahi, ab hari hai main naahi.... jab andhiyaara mit gaya, deepak der kamai... "

"rukha sookha khai ke thanda paani piyo, dekh parai chaukri, mat lalchaye jiyo..."

this is what i need to develop....:)

"saadhu kahawat kathin hai... lamba per khajoor... chadhe to prem ras... gire to chaknachoor..."

be ware of what you opt for mr. mohan!!!...:)

"aakhir ye tan khaak milega...kyun firta magroori mein..."

conquered over this... lost ego and all...:)...

"likha likha ki hai nahi...dekha dekha baat... dulha dulhan mil gaye... feeki pari baarat..."

sahi baat.... saw this in my sis's marriage!!!...:)
anyways seriously.... when u get what u want... there is no care for anything else!!!...:D

nashe ekehre heen achhe hote hain.... sab kehte hain ek par doosra nasah na chadhaao....kya karein... ek sharaab oopar music...:D

"saahib mera ek hai... dooja kaha na jaaye... doja saahib jo kahoon... saahib khara rasaye!!!"

humne sirf shiv ko heen maana hai.... aur koi nahi!!!...:)

THE SCENT OF HAPPINESS!!

the morning sun,
an empty chair,
an extra cup of tea,
noise which seemed like music,
very familiar footsteps,
her own footsteps...

the burning sun,
an empty chair,
an extra plate,
very familiar silence,
silence which was broken by her own breaths....

the picturesque sunset ,
an empty place,
an extra glass of wine,
very familiar walk,
her own walk by river side....

the darkness of the night,
this time few occupants of the emptiness,
a scent of happiness,
few smiles and few tears,
smiles to share and wipers of tears..

the day ended...
again the loneliness overcame everything,
but the few moments of company inspired her life for yet another day!!!


rasputin/fakir (amit)

AN APOLOGY!!!

My dearest DEEDS,

I am so sorry that i wasn't in touch with you since past so many days... but i hope, if not all, at least you will understand the mess i was in... Of! course, it wasn't the type of mess which i generally hate... but then i didn't have time to breathe for so many days... and even now too... probably will breathe after 4th...lolzz!!!...:)

I AM WAITING FOR 4TH WHEN AT NIGHT...." MAIN AUR MERI DAARU AAPAS MEIN BAAT KARENGI KI AGAR TUM BHI SAATH BAITH KAR PEETI TO KAISA HOTA...."...LOLZZ!!!...

Please forgive me if i at all had hurt you....

yours lovingly, affectionately, heartly.. heavenly... blah..blah...blah...

Rasputin/Fakir(Amit)