छोड़ दूँ ,
मोड़ दूँ,
इस पल से ख़ुद को तोड़ लूँ,
रास्तों पड़ रूहों के साए,
नकाब ऐसा इक मैं भी ओढ़ लूँ,
खो जाऊं,
खोज लूँ,
जाग कर सोच लूँ,
कल तुझमें मैं समाया था,
आज तुझको ख़ुद में समेट लूँ,
रास्तों पड़ रूहों के साए....
नकाब ऐसा इक मैं भी ओढ़ लूँ.....
Apr 5, 2009
Feb 12, 2009
NO TITLE!!!
A little sick, little bank, working less than I did before, probably finding no reasons to work. I am not depressed, but not totally alive and agile as life. Something died some days back and there is no keen effort too revive the dead.
Everything seeming so fake and absurd. Can't answer the questions like "What am I doing here?" and "What should I do?" but not frustrated at all cause things like this don't matter anymore.
Trying to find HUMANS around me separating myself from the seemingly ones.
Listening again to the "ROMEO & JULIET" song by DIRE STRAITS, making one more effort to strike the happy chords in my life cause love is the thing which can do that for anyone and I am no exception.
PROBABLY SOME ACUTE CHANGES ARE NEAR AND THE THINGS ABOVE INDICATE THE CHANGES.......:)
"started with nothing,
ended with nothing,
the mid was blessing,
when at least I did have something!!!"
amit writes......rasputin suggests......fakir decides!!!...:)
amit/rasputin/fakir
Everything seeming so fake and absurd. Can't answer the questions like "What am I doing here?" and "What should I do?" but not frustrated at all cause things like this don't matter anymore.
Trying to find HUMANS around me separating myself from the seemingly ones.
Listening again to the "ROMEO & JULIET" song by DIRE STRAITS, making one more effort to strike the happy chords in my life cause love is the thing which can do that for anyone and I am no exception.
PROBABLY SOME ACUTE CHANGES ARE NEAR AND THE THINGS ABOVE INDICATE THE CHANGES.......:)
"started with nothing,
ended with nothing,
the mid was blessing,
when at least I did have something!!!"
amit writes......rasputin suggests......fakir decides!!!...:)
amit/rasputin/fakir
Feb 10, 2009
THE HUMANITY RECESSION!!!
These some days have devastated my inner soul and the only conclusion that I came to going through all the turmoils in my life was that "EDUCATION" has killed "HUMANITY" in all its forms.
I don't carry any dreams like traveling around world and earning lots of money now. I met people hugely educated and richly rich but with a heart which just beats without any rhythm. It was thoroughly surprising for me to see people running away from the help that they can render just to spend some more time to work so that they could increase their bank balance and further more the greatest excuse nowadays... "RECESSION"... It was an economic recession I think, but now I find a crisis of humanity.
The economic recession may improve but the lack of humanity can never be. EDUCATION HAS KILLED THE SOUL OF BEING A HUMAN BEING.
What will I gain joining a big multinational company?
If this is how my life will be structured then I need to get out of the dreams of working high and earning higher. Better to stay in a small village with few people around and have humanity alive so that I could provide help to anyone in need.
I don't carry any dreams like traveling around world and earning lots of money now. I met people hugely educated and richly rich but with a heart which just beats without any rhythm. It was thoroughly surprising for me to see people running away from the help that they can render just to spend some more time to work so that they could increase their bank balance and further more the greatest excuse nowadays... "RECESSION"... It was an economic recession I think, but now I find a crisis of humanity.
The economic recession may improve but the lack of humanity can never be. EDUCATION HAS KILLED THE SOUL OF BEING A HUMAN BEING.
What will I gain joining a big multinational company?
If this is how my life will be structured then I need to get out of the dreams of working high and earning higher. Better to stay in a small village with few people around and have humanity alive so that I could provide help to anyone in need.
Jan 15, 2009
मन हमारा, जो लिखे वो तुम्हारा... पढ़ें और बतायें, कैसी लगी!!!
Hello Everyone!!!
This post celebrates my first book in print, a self published one and a compilation of my POEMS in HINDI.
Do purchase the book so that I can feel the “push” and continue writing more.
Will be waiting for all your comments here, and so for the time being, will stop my blog posts to keep this post “NEW”.
Can find the book in here at:
Jan 10, 2009
ख़ुद से वचन
सात रंगों से सजा ये जीवन है मेरा,
दूरियों को परास्त करते ये रंग हैं मेरे,
इस जीवन में सजाने की भावना उस इन्द्रधनुष को लिए,
अपनी अलग सी सपनों की दुनिया बनाना,
ये ख़ुद से वचन है मेरा!!
ख़ुद के सूरज और ख़ुद के चाँद को अपने जीवन में लाऊँ,
इस जीवन में कुछ ऐसा कर जाऊँ,
ना देखूं ना सुनूं,
बस कल्पना के पंख लगा कर आज उड़ जाऊँ.
पृथ्वी के कोने को छूने का प्रण है मेरा,
अपनी अलग सी सपनों की दुनिया बनाना ये ख़ुद से वचन है मेरा!!
देखो फ़िर ये सूरज निकल पड़ा,
मेरी अपनी सी लगती रात को अपने आगोश में ले लिया,
इस सूरज से भी ऊँचा जाऊं,
रात की खामोशी को कभी ना भुलाऊँ,
बस उसकी गोद में सर रख कर सोता जाऊँ,
रात की ममता की सभी को अनुभूति कराऊँ।
यही बस ख्वाब है मेरा,
अपनी अलग सी सपनों की दुनिया बनाना ये ख़ुद से वचन है मेरा!!
दूरियों को परास्त करते ये रंग हैं मेरे,
इस जीवन में सजाने की भावना उस इन्द्रधनुष को लिए,
अपनी अलग सी सपनों की दुनिया बनाना,
ये ख़ुद से वचन है मेरा!!
ख़ुद के सूरज और ख़ुद के चाँद को अपने जीवन में लाऊँ,
इस जीवन में कुछ ऐसा कर जाऊँ,
ना देखूं ना सुनूं,
बस कल्पना के पंख लगा कर आज उड़ जाऊँ.
पृथ्वी के कोने को छूने का प्रण है मेरा,
अपनी अलग सी सपनों की दुनिया बनाना ये ख़ुद से वचन है मेरा!!
देखो फ़िर ये सूरज निकल पड़ा,
मेरी अपनी सी लगती रात को अपने आगोश में ले लिया,
इस सूरज से भी ऊँचा जाऊं,
रात की खामोशी को कभी ना भुलाऊँ,
बस उसकी गोद में सर रख कर सोता जाऊँ,
रात की ममता की सभी को अनुभूति कराऊँ।
यही बस ख्वाब है मेरा,
अपनी अलग सी सपनों की दुनिया बनाना ये ख़ुद से वचन है मेरा!!
Jan 9, 2009
MY COPYRIGHT..2....:)
Give me a day and i will write a story,
Grant me a month and I won't even scribble a word,
That's the way,
Life sculptured me,
And I am too stubborn to deny the fact that,
Life made a HUMAN out of me,
Otherwise I WAS JUST PROUD TO BE AN ANIMAL.....
Grant me a month and I won't even scribble a word,
That's the way,
Life sculptured me,
And I am too stubborn to deny the fact that,
Life made a HUMAN out of me,
Otherwise I WAS JUST PROUD TO BE AN ANIMAL.....
Jan 6, 2009
TELL ME R & F
Rasputin & Fakir, suddenly I am having these thought losses... and am very scared to go into the dry phase that i usually go into...guide me through this....
Rasputin: Don't worry Amit, everything is going to get straightened and soon you will have more thoughts than you can pen down in here.... Why getting scared.... transition is the way life makes us feel its existence....So be brave....cherish your dryness too.... it will make you feel the thirst and need for something to wet you.....:)
Fakir: I agree with Rasputin this time Amit.... believe, have faith.... on Shiva and yourself.... If you have faith on god you will never lose faith on yourself.... so go to him... more than you went before.....ask him.....share your problems with him.... he won't reply but he will take care of things that you are worried about..... about the dryness.... why are you so concerned... take his name, hold the pen.... start writing.... he will guide your hand....and you will see the most beautiful picture emerging out of the dry thoughts....probably it will be better than the ones before.....
thnx both of you..... you people are sweethearts.... love you a lot....:)
Rasputin: Don't worry Amit, everything is going to get straightened and soon you will have more thoughts than you can pen down in here.... Why getting scared.... transition is the way life makes us feel its existence....So be brave....cherish your dryness too.... it will make you feel the thirst and need for something to wet you.....:)
Fakir: I agree with Rasputin this time Amit.... believe, have faith.... on Shiva and yourself.... If you have faith on god you will never lose faith on yourself.... so go to him... more than you went before.....ask him.....share your problems with him.... he won't reply but he will take care of things that you are worried about..... about the dryness.... why are you so concerned... take his name, hold the pen.... start writing.... he will guide your hand....and you will see the most beautiful picture emerging out of the dry thoughts....probably it will be better than the ones before.....
thnx both of you..... you people are sweethearts.... love you a lot....:)
Jan 5, 2009
Jan 3, 2009
पापा, एक बार....
पापा, एक बार पलट कर फ़िर से देखो न,
मैं वैसा नहीं,
जैसा दिखता हूँ।
पापा ऐसा कभी नहीं चाहा मैंने,
की तुम्हें चोट पहुचे,
पर पापा मन् थोरा नादान था,
वो बेहेक गया,
जाने कैसे उसने एक ऐसी राह ले ली,
जो तुम नहीं चाहते थे,
पर अब तो मैं वापिस आ गया हूँ,
तुम्हारे साथ चलना चाहता हूँ,
पापा, फ़िर भी ऐसा क्यूँ लगता है की,
तुम मुझे अभी भी वैसे हीं देखते हो।
बचपन में तुमने मेरी सारी गलतियाँ माफ़ की है न पापा,
आज क्या मैं इतना बरा हो गया,
तुम माफ़ क्यूँ नहीं कर पा रहे मुझे पापा?
बरा होना अगर ऐसा था,
तो मुझे कभी भी बरा नहीं होना था,
मुझे अभी भी मेरे घोरे की सवारी करनी है,
जो कभी भी थकता नहीं था,
मुझे मेरे पापा चाहिए जो मुझे कुछ भी ला देते थे,
कभी डांटते,
फ़िर प्यार से गले लगा लेते।
पापा, तुमने एक बार मुझे मारा था,
फ़िर रात भर मेरे बगल में बैठे थे,
मुझे मनाते,
आज क्यूँ नहीं मना लेते मुझे,
क्यूँ नहीं बैठते मेरे पास आ कर?
क्या करूंगा मैं बरा हो कर पापा,
मुझे बस आपका बेटा बनना है,
और किसी से क्या लेना देना?
पापा एक बार पलट कर फ़िर देखो न,
मैं बरा नहीं हुआ,
मैं वही हूँ, आपका छोटा बेटा,
जिसके घुंघराले बालों में आपकी उँगलियाँ फस जाया करती थी,
जिसके नाखूनों को आप बरे प्यार से काटते थे,
जिसके पैर गंदे होने पर,
आप उन्हें ख़ुद साफ़ कर दिया कर देते थे।
पापा ज़िन्दगी से लरते लरते,
पता नहीं कहाँ खो गया मैं,
खोज लो न मुझे पापा,
बुला लो न मुझे,
देखो न, मेरे बाल उलझ गए हैं,
कितने गंदे हो गए हैं मेरे ये नाखून,
आ जाओ न पापा,
ले जाओ न मुझे।
पापा, देखो न एक बार पलट कर,
मैं वैसा नहीं,
जैसा दिखता हूँ।
मैं वैसा नहीं,
जैसा दिखता हूँ।
पापा ऐसा कभी नहीं चाहा मैंने,
की तुम्हें चोट पहुचे,
पर पापा मन् थोरा नादान था,
वो बेहेक गया,
जाने कैसे उसने एक ऐसी राह ले ली,
जो तुम नहीं चाहते थे,
पर अब तो मैं वापिस आ गया हूँ,
तुम्हारे साथ चलना चाहता हूँ,
पापा, फ़िर भी ऐसा क्यूँ लगता है की,
तुम मुझे अभी भी वैसे हीं देखते हो।
बचपन में तुमने मेरी सारी गलतियाँ माफ़ की है न पापा,
आज क्या मैं इतना बरा हो गया,
तुम माफ़ क्यूँ नहीं कर पा रहे मुझे पापा?
बरा होना अगर ऐसा था,
तो मुझे कभी भी बरा नहीं होना था,
मुझे अभी भी मेरे घोरे की सवारी करनी है,
जो कभी भी थकता नहीं था,
मुझे मेरे पापा चाहिए जो मुझे कुछ भी ला देते थे,
कभी डांटते,
फ़िर प्यार से गले लगा लेते।
पापा, तुमने एक बार मुझे मारा था,
फ़िर रात भर मेरे बगल में बैठे थे,
मुझे मनाते,
आज क्यूँ नहीं मना लेते मुझे,
क्यूँ नहीं बैठते मेरे पास आ कर?
क्या करूंगा मैं बरा हो कर पापा,
मुझे बस आपका बेटा बनना है,
और किसी से क्या लेना देना?
पापा एक बार पलट कर फ़िर देखो न,
मैं बरा नहीं हुआ,
मैं वही हूँ, आपका छोटा बेटा,
जिसके घुंघराले बालों में आपकी उँगलियाँ फस जाया करती थी,
जिसके नाखूनों को आप बरे प्यार से काटते थे,
जिसके पैर गंदे होने पर,
आप उन्हें ख़ुद साफ़ कर दिया कर देते थे।
पापा ज़िन्दगी से लरते लरते,
पता नहीं कहाँ खो गया मैं,
खोज लो न मुझे पापा,
बुला लो न मुझे,
देखो न, मेरे बाल उलझ गए हैं,
कितने गंदे हो गए हैं मेरे ये नाखून,
आ जाओ न पापा,
ले जाओ न मुझे।
पापा, देखो न एक बार पलट कर,
मैं वैसा नहीं,
जैसा दिखता हूँ।
REALLY ANGRY ON RASPUTIN!!!!
I don't know why it always happens....
wanted to drink......OK
wanted to drink less......OK
wanted to be in senses.......OK
wanted to enjoy.......OK
and
ended up drinking more than ever...... WHY???
there were no questions of remaining in senses....damn it!!! i don't even remember what the bloody fuck i was talking yesterday..... and still am dizzy.... Happy!!!!RASPUTIN... I should have never allowed you to take control over me.... WHY DID I TRUST YOU????
enjoy... ya probably i did....but i don't remember.... i do remember running to wash room twice to vomit......WASN'T THIS GREAT....
wanted to drink......OK
wanted to drink less......OK
wanted to be in senses.......OK
wanted to enjoy.......OK
and
ended up drinking more than ever...... WHY???
there were no questions of remaining in senses....damn it!!! i don't even remember what the bloody fuck i was talking yesterday..... and still am dizzy.... Happy!!!!RASPUTIN... I should have never allowed you to take control over me.... WHY DID I TRUST YOU????
enjoy... ya probably i did....but i don't remember.... i do remember running to wash room twice to vomit......WASN'T THIS GREAT....
Jan 2, 2009
GIRLS .... :(
"जाओ मैं तुमसे बात नही करती, तुम आज भी पी कर आए हो," एक प्रेमिका ने अपने प्रेमी के पीने की आदत से नाराज़गी दिखाते हुए, "प्यार" से कहा ।
"अच्छा ऐसी बात है, तो पहले क्यूं नही कहा, मैं रोज़ पी कर आता, कम से कम तुमसे बात करने से तो बच जाता, "
प्रेमी ने हँस कर जवाब दिया ।
"ऐसी बात है, तुम मुझसे बात नही करोगे तो तुम्हें अच्छा लगेगा, तो मैं चली जाती हूँ, आज के बाद कभी नही आऊँगी," प्रेमिका ने इस बार पिछली बार के मुकाबले थोरी और कठोरता का इस्तमाल किया ।
" अगर ऐसा हो जाए तो मज़ा आ जाए," प्रेमी ने फ़िर से मज़ाक में उस बात को टाल दिया ।
वो मज़ाक थोरा मंहगा पर गया और प्रेमिका घर चोर कर चली गई।
प्रेमी ने रोकने की कोशिश की पर प्रेमिका के ने गुस्से ने उसे रुकने की अनुमति नही दी।
प्रेमी के घर का हाल:
प्रेमी ने थोरी देर अपनी प्रेमिका से संपर्क बनाने की कोशिश की। हर कोशिश नाकाम होने के बाद, प्रेमी ने शराब के दो घूँट और गटके, बिस्तर पर लेटा और सो गया।
प्रेमिका के घर का हाल:
प्रेमिका रात भर परेशान रही और सोचती रही की क्या उसके प्रेमी को सच में उससे इतनी शिकायतें हैं। नींद का नामोनिशान नहीं था उसकी आंखों में। रात भर परेशान रहने के बाद, दूसरे दिन सारी बातें वापिस से अपने स्थान पर शकुशल लौट चुकी थी।
दोनों के बीच में सुलह हो गई और आपस का प्यार अभी भी बरकरार था।
अब आप लोग बताइए, की who was at the loss???? lolzzzz
this is what i say to all the girls.... stop thinking like bloody SOCRATES, live your life and enjoy!!!..:)
"अच्छा ऐसी बात है, तो पहले क्यूं नही कहा, मैं रोज़ पी कर आता, कम से कम तुमसे बात करने से तो बच जाता, "
प्रेमी ने हँस कर जवाब दिया ।
"ऐसी बात है, तुम मुझसे बात नही करोगे तो तुम्हें अच्छा लगेगा, तो मैं चली जाती हूँ, आज के बाद कभी नही आऊँगी," प्रेमिका ने इस बार पिछली बार के मुकाबले थोरी और कठोरता का इस्तमाल किया ।
" अगर ऐसा हो जाए तो मज़ा आ जाए," प्रेमी ने फ़िर से मज़ाक में उस बात को टाल दिया ।
वो मज़ाक थोरा मंहगा पर गया और प्रेमिका घर चोर कर चली गई।
प्रेमी ने रोकने की कोशिश की पर प्रेमिका के ने गुस्से ने उसे रुकने की अनुमति नही दी।
प्रेमी के घर का हाल:
प्रेमी ने थोरी देर अपनी प्रेमिका से संपर्क बनाने की कोशिश की। हर कोशिश नाकाम होने के बाद, प्रेमी ने शराब के दो घूँट और गटके, बिस्तर पर लेटा और सो गया।
प्रेमिका के घर का हाल:
प्रेमिका रात भर परेशान रही और सोचती रही की क्या उसके प्रेमी को सच में उससे इतनी शिकायतें हैं। नींद का नामोनिशान नहीं था उसकी आंखों में। रात भर परेशान रहने के बाद, दूसरे दिन सारी बातें वापिस से अपने स्थान पर शकुशल लौट चुकी थी।
दोनों के बीच में सुलह हो गई और आपस का प्यार अभी भी बरकरार था।
अब आप लोग बताइए, की who was at the loss???? lolzzzz
this is what i say to all the girls.... stop thinking like bloody SOCRATES, live your life and enjoy!!!..:)
Jan 1, 2009
RANDOM THOUGHTS!!!
I was offered scotch today and i refused!!!!!
This is some good start I suppose....:)
I don't like such changes but sometimes you need to change... as I have mentioned before in one of my early posts.... NEED OF THE MOMENT V/S MOMENT.
A common myth does recommend to drink and enjoy as it is the start of the year but the moment suddenly felt so pious that I refused... Anyways it feels good whenever you do something which strengthens your will power.
I could feel a change in the temperature around and suddenly the air seems to be less polluted. Probably 2009 has seriously arrived for me. Was waiting for this.
Was on phone with Anu while the clock struck 12:00 and we both were confused as the noise outside in both the places suggested celebrations but we both didn't have a time piece in front of us. Later on after realizing that THE NEW YEAR has arrived we both wished each other and I continued with my studies..
About RESOLUTIONS, I haven't given that any thought yet and probably won't indulge in it. "ALL THE PROMISES ARE MADE TO BE BROKEN AND ALL THE NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS ARE THE LIES SPOKEN!!"...that was good....;)
some Hindi poet said this someday.....
"नए साल की खुशी में,
पुराने को न भुला देना,
ये साल भी कभी पुराना हो जाएगा,
उसे ये एहसास न दिला देना ।
पिछले साल में जो किया,
उसकी यादों को सीढी बना,
नए साल की नई यादें बना लेना ।"...
but who is the poet???.....
it is me....;).... who else???...:o
and I am saying this today....:)
This is some good start I suppose....:)
I don't like such changes but sometimes you need to change... as I have mentioned before in one of my early posts.... NEED OF THE MOMENT V/S MOMENT.
A common myth does recommend to drink and enjoy as it is the start of the year but the moment suddenly felt so pious that I refused... Anyways it feels good whenever you do something which strengthens your will power.
I could feel a change in the temperature around and suddenly the air seems to be less polluted. Probably 2009 has seriously arrived for me. Was waiting for this.
Was on phone with Anu while the clock struck 12:00 and we both were confused as the noise outside in both the places suggested celebrations but we both didn't have a time piece in front of us. Later on after realizing that THE NEW YEAR has arrived we both wished each other and I continued with my studies..
About RESOLUTIONS, I haven't given that any thought yet and probably won't indulge in it. "ALL THE PROMISES ARE MADE TO BE BROKEN AND ALL THE NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS ARE THE LIES SPOKEN!!"...that was good....;)
some Hindi poet said this someday.....
"नए साल की खुशी में,
पुराने को न भुला देना,
ये साल भी कभी पुराना हो जाएगा,
उसे ये एहसास न दिला देना ।
पिछले साल में जो किया,
उसकी यादों को सीढी बना,
नए साल की नई यादें बना लेना ।"...
but who is the poet???.....
it is me....;).... who else???...:o
and I am saying this today....:)
Dec 31, 2008
आओ एक कहानी सुनाता हूँ!
हाँ तो, कहानी ऐसे शुरू हुई,
एक रोज़, सुबह के कुछ ४ बजे, मुर्गे ने बांग भी नही दी थी तभी, एक पागल सा दिखता बूढा व्यक्ति सूरज की पड़ रही, उन अभी अपूर्ण रूप से विकसित किरणों में, हमारे घर के आगे जो गली है उसमें कुछ ढूंढ रहा था ।
मुझे उसकी मानसिक स्थिति ठीक नही लगी तो मैंने सोचा कि जा कर उसकी मदद कर दूँ।
मुझे देख बूढे को जाने क्या हुआ । उसने आकर मेरे हाँथ को ज़ोर से पकड़ लिया । ऐसा होने की कोई उम्मीद नही होने कि वजह से मैं थोड़ा घबरा गया था।
बूढे ने मुझे हँस के देखा और कहा कि वो मुझे हीं ढूंढ रहा था। ये सुन मुझे बरा आश्चर्य हुआ । मैं तो उसे जानता भी नहीं था।
मेरा चेहरा देख उसे समझ में आ गया कि मैं क्या सोच रहा हूँ।
उसने कहा कि बहुत दिनों से उसने किसी से बात नहीं की थी । उसे एक इंसान चाहिए था जो उसके दिल की बात सुन सके। कहते कहते उसकी आँखें भर आई।
मैंने उन्हें गले लगा लिया । उनकी सूनी आँखों में वो अश्रु धार मानों रेगिस्तान में एक नदी के समान थी ।
फ़िर मैं उन्हें अपने घर ले आया ।
सूरज की रौशनी के बढ़ते स्वरुप को देखते हुए चाय की चुस्कियां भरी।
इस दौरान न उन्होंने मुझसे कुछ कहा न मैंने उनसे।
उनकी जो बात थी शायद उनके आंसूओं के साथ बह गई।
अब हम रोज़ सुबह मिलते हैं, साथ बैठ कुछ बातें करते हैं और चाय पीते हैं। उन्हें अपने अकेलेपन का एक साथी मिल गया और बिन मांगे भगवान् ने इस अनजाने शेहेर में मुझे एक अपना सा अभिभावक दे दिया।
मुझे उसकी मानसिक स्थिति ठीक नही लगी तो मैंने सोचा कि जा कर उसकी मदद कर दूँ।
मुझे देख बूढे को जाने क्या हुआ । उसने आकर मेरे हाँथ को ज़ोर से पकड़ लिया । ऐसा होने की कोई उम्मीद नही होने कि वजह से मैं थोड़ा घबरा गया था।
बूढे ने मुझे हँस के देखा और कहा कि वो मुझे हीं ढूंढ रहा था। ये सुन मुझे बरा आश्चर्य हुआ । मैं तो उसे जानता भी नहीं था।
मेरा चेहरा देख उसे समझ में आ गया कि मैं क्या सोच रहा हूँ।
उसने कहा कि बहुत दिनों से उसने किसी से बात नहीं की थी । उसे एक इंसान चाहिए था जो उसके दिल की बात सुन सके। कहते कहते उसकी आँखें भर आई।
मैंने उन्हें गले लगा लिया । उनकी सूनी आँखों में वो अश्रु धार मानों रेगिस्तान में एक नदी के समान थी ।
फ़िर मैं उन्हें अपने घर ले आया ।
सूरज की रौशनी के बढ़ते स्वरुप को देखते हुए चाय की चुस्कियां भरी।
इस दौरान न उन्होंने मुझसे कुछ कहा न मैंने उनसे।
उनकी जो बात थी शायद उनके आंसूओं के साथ बह गई।
अब हम रोज़ सुबह मिलते हैं, साथ बैठ कुछ बातें करते हैं और चाय पीते हैं। उन्हें अपने अकेलेपन का एक साथी मिल गया और बिन मांगे भगवान् ने इस अनजाने शेहेर में मुझे एक अपना सा अभिभावक दे दिया।
PARTING NOTE TO 2008
DEAREST 2008,
today your life ends. Thanks for giving me some very good memories and I promise I will preserve them throughout my life. My sister got married, had some great fun together, I mean my family and me. I just love remembering all those times so much. Met some new friends and had a talk with some older ones too. Saw a slight change in Ma and Papa. They have started looking younger. ;). Saw myself getting transformed from fun loving to studious to lazy bug and back again to studying.
I don't remember how the first day of you was spent but I know it would have been really beautiful.
Some hours are still left and I just want to remind you that you were really precious and will always remain.
Will miss you but am eager to see your descendant take care of my life.
TAKE CARE OLD MAN!! I WILL NEVER BURN YOU. YOU WERE BEAUTIFUL AND STILL ARE!
love,
fakir/rasputin/amit
today your life ends. Thanks for giving me some very good memories and I promise I will preserve them throughout my life. My sister got married, had some great fun together, I mean my family and me. I just love remembering all those times so much. Met some new friends and had a talk with some older ones too. Saw a slight change in Ma and Papa. They have started looking younger. ;). Saw myself getting transformed from fun loving to studious to lazy bug and back again to studying.
I don't remember how the first day of you was spent but I know it would have been really beautiful.
Some hours are still left and I just want to remind you that you were really precious and will always remain.
Will miss you but am eager to see your descendant take care of my life.
TAKE CARE OLD MAN!! I WILL NEVER BURN YOU. YOU WERE BEAUTIFUL AND STILL ARE!
love,
fakir/rasputin/amit
Dec 30, 2008
THIS IS RASPUTIN... NOT ME...:p
"अरे ओ BOMBAY वालों,
कुछ COMMENT भी तो मारो....:p."
shuuuu Rasputin shuuuuuu keep quiet!!!!....
कुछ COMMENT भी तो मारो....:p."
shuuuu Rasputin shuuuuuu keep quiet!!!!....
इंतज़ार
इंतज़ार करना पसंद नहीं,
पर कर लूँगा,
चलो ये भी सही ।
इस इंतज़ार के आगे अगर बीते को भूलने की आस है,
तो इस इंतज़ार से मुझे इनकार नही ।
दिये को देख रातें काटी हैं,
जनवरी की रात थी,
शरीर पर एक ढंग का कपड़ा नहीं,
चिथरों में लिपटा मेरा शरीर जितना ठिठूरता,
उतनी मुझे तुम्हारी आस तुम्हारे पास खीच लेती थी,
शरीर कांपता था,
पर मानो वो दिया और कहीं नहीं,
किसी ने मेरे दिल में जला रखा था,
शायद बाकी कुछ रह हीं नहीं गया था,
बस मैं था और तुम्हारा इंतज़ार था ।
क्या किस्मत,
क्या समय,
क्या देखना,
क्या सुनना,
चलना,
रुक जाना,
जागते हुए सपने देखना,
और सोते हुए जागना,
कुछ रह हीं नहीं गया है शायद,
देखूं तो बस यही समझ आता है,
कभी मुझे इंतज़ार करना पसंद नहीं था,
और आज बैठा हूँ एक युग से तुम्हारे इंतज़ार में..........
मन हमारा जो लिखे,
वो तुम्हारा!!!
अमित मोहन
पर कर लूँगा,
चलो ये भी सही ।
इस इंतज़ार के आगे अगर बीते को भूलने की आस है,
तो इस इंतज़ार से मुझे इनकार नही ।
दिये को देख रातें काटी हैं,
जनवरी की रात थी,
शरीर पर एक ढंग का कपड़ा नहीं,
चिथरों में लिपटा मेरा शरीर जितना ठिठूरता,
उतनी मुझे तुम्हारी आस तुम्हारे पास खीच लेती थी,
शरीर कांपता था,
पर मानो वो दिया और कहीं नहीं,
किसी ने मेरे दिल में जला रखा था,
शायद बाकी कुछ रह हीं नहीं गया था,
बस मैं था और तुम्हारा इंतज़ार था ।
क्या किस्मत,
क्या समय,
क्या देखना,
क्या सुनना,
चलना,
रुक जाना,
जागते हुए सपने देखना,
और सोते हुए जागना,
कुछ रह हीं नहीं गया है शायद,
देखूं तो बस यही समझ आता है,
कभी मुझे इंतज़ार करना पसंद नहीं था,
और आज बैठा हूँ एक युग से तुम्हारे इंतज़ार में..........
मन हमारा जो लिखे,
वो तुम्हारा!!!
अमित मोहन
Dec 29, 2008
**SPOOF OF GHAJINI**
After hearing a lot about the movie “GHAJINI” I thought why not to write a spoof of it?? So here it goes….
Players: Govinda (with his one pack belly) as SANJAY SINGHANIA
Rakhi Savant (equally irritating as she is in the news channels) as KALPANA
OTHER CASTINGS CAN BE LIFTED FROM THE EKTA KAPOOR FAMILY DRAMAS…. (Trust me on this)
SCRIPT:
The movie starts with Sanjay waking up in his room and finding his wife Kalpana sleeping by his side. He sees himself in the mirror and is startled to see the cut marks on his head. He was trying to find the answer to this when his wife told him that he was hit by a cycle while crossing the road cause of which he was suffering from short term memory loss and was unable to make new memories. Sanjay with a surprised look on his face goes to the bathroom and takes off his t- shirt to find something written on his belly. The word was “KILL”. He recognized the handwriting. It was his. Even after a lot of perseverance he was unable to remember why he wrote such thing. Suddenly he found a packet in his pocket; it was a pouch of “rat and cockroach killer”. His brain started to function.
Probably this was what he wanted to write. He used to work in a pest control department which threw him out cause of his disease so he might have decided to fight against those ugly creatures by himself.
One more look on his entire body made him realize that he had some other names too written on his hands. The names were like, Sunita and others. He went back to his room and searched for some other clues. In his drawer he found a Polaroid picture of a lady dressed as a maid and on the photograph it was written in his own handwriting, “She will help you achieve your goal, because she also hates parasites.”
Sanjay was too scared to go outside and he was feeling really embarrassed. Kids used to tease him for his dome shaped belly and now because of his head being shaved cause of the accident his appearance was nothing less than “HUMPTY DUMPTY”.
To engage himself, he kept on feeding the mice in the nearby gutters with the poison he found in his pocket and was happy to see them die in front of him. After finishing the stuff he returned back home and was beaten by his wife cause of being late. He asked her about Sunita and who she was. Hearing this Kalpana lost her temper and kicked his ass and tore his shirt to find some “mirror image” tattoo on his big fat stomach just above his belly button. She pulled him to the mirror to read what was written. The whole statement which Sanjay was unable to read because of the spherical shape of his belly was,
“HAVE TO KILL MY WIFE.”
“HAVE TO” on one side and “MY WIFE” on the other. So what he read was “KILL”.
But Kalpana had read it now. This was the end of Sanjay. Words rushed out from his mouth, “BULL SHIT!”
Of! Course, now he was beaten like bull shit by Kalpana. Sunita came for his rescue and after getting ten to fifteen slaps from Kalpana, she told her about the plan she and Sanjay were up to. They wanted to kill Kalpana so that they could move ahead in their relationship. This was why Sanjay carried a “Rat killer” in his pocket so that whenever he gets time, he could add it to Kalpana’s food. He was annoyed by Kalpana as she was having multiple affairs with guys and girls around. Frustrated by this Sanjay fell in love with his house maid Sunita.
To remind himself about the purpose he carried a note like “READ YOUR BELLY THROUGH AND THROUGH”. But that day the note fell into the commode and got flushed and the confusions got created. Sunita came late to work that day and so their indecent ideas were exposed to Kalpana who later on called the police constable- cum- her boy friend to beat the shit out of the two.
Now, Kalpana is happily married to her boy friend.
Sanjay, after being badly beaten by the constable started forgetting things in a second compared to the fifteen minutes which he took to forget things before. He is popularly known as “ONE SECOND SANJAY”, named after “FIVE SECOND SAM” from “FIFTY FIRST DATES”.
Sunita pleaded for mercy and is dating four at a time now, the constable, the judge who relieved her, ONE SECOND SANJAY (for one second in a day!!) and KALPANA!!!
I NEED REVIEWS FOR THE SCRIPT… DO COMMENT!!!...:p:p:p
RAPUTIN(AMIT)
"I RESIDE IN YOU,
WHY DON'T YOU ALLOW ME TO SPEAK?
I AM YOURS,
LET ME TAKE THE CONTROL,
BELIEVE,
HAVE FAITH IN ME,
LISTEN TO MY WORDS,
THEY ARE NOT MEANINGLESS,
LET YOUR HEART VIBRATE WITH MY BREATH,
LET THE REACTIONS BE GOVERNED BY MY ACTIONS.
YOU WANT TO FEEL THE CHARM OF BEING ALIVE?
LET ME DO THAT FOR YOU.
I WILL LIVE IN YOU.
OPEN THE DOORS,
LET ME IN,
BE FREE.....
BE SAFE.....
LET ME FLY YOUR PLANE FOR YOU....."
one day the fakir said this to me and we both i mean, rasputin & me most willingly gave the handle in his hands on which we had faith.... a faith that told us... "he will take us there where we are striving to go!!".... thnx fakir.. you are for sure a rock star. ..:)
RASPUTIN AND AMIT
WHY DON'T YOU ALLOW ME TO SPEAK?
I AM YOURS,
LET ME TAKE THE CONTROL,
BELIEVE,
HAVE FAITH IN ME,
LISTEN TO MY WORDS,
THEY ARE NOT MEANINGLESS,
LET YOUR HEART VIBRATE WITH MY BREATH,
LET THE REACTIONS BE GOVERNED BY MY ACTIONS.
YOU WANT TO FEEL THE CHARM OF BEING ALIVE?
LET ME DO THAT FOR YOU.
I WILL LIVE IN YOU.
OPEN THE DOORS,
LET ME IN,
BE FREE.....
BE SAFE.....
LET ME FLY YOUR PLANE FOR YOU....."
one day the fakir said this to me and we both i mean, rasputin & me most willingly gave the handle in his hands on which we had faith.... a faith that told us... "he will take us there where we are striving to go!!".... thnx fakir.. you are for sure a rock star. ..:)
RASPUTIN AND AMIT
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I am sitting in front of the television, watching something but not actually watching as my eyes are stuck on the screen but my mind i...
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After hearing a lot about the movie “ GHAJINI ” I thought why not to write a spoof of it?? So here it goes…. Players: Govinda ... -
THE INNER WORLDS OF FAITH/SUPERSTITION “ MOKSHA” or “MUKTI ” is no longer a HINDUISM m... -
I knew no boundaries, I knew no blocks, I flew with my wings, scaring them all, The bad smoke, or the holy air, All saw my flight...